sorry is just another word
ARGH..
In the middle of orientation week….
It can be a real pain in the ass….(Fabes…..literally,for you…..sorry to hear that..)
Its all in good fun; at least meeting new friends is..
But there has to be a distinction;between what is real and private, and what is generic; what we want to do, and what we must do; who we love, and who we must learn to love.
And what I am learning this week-is how to draw that line.
Quote of the day:
“If your head explodes,you’ll never become a doctor”
-Scrubs-
And its still only ORIENTATION WEEK!!!!!!!! 😉
all that jazz
Recently I bumped into a friend- the extent of our past conversations were…
“Hi! Bye! See you! Thanks! On your way in/out? Good luck! Where’s the loo,do you know?”
But that day…just that day…something came over me.
For some strange reason, I started asking him all these stupid questions-not that they were stupid stupid, but I was just saying the stupidest things.
I don’t know EXACTLY what words came out of my mouth, but I DO know I was babbling.
Its like my brain wasn’t functioning properly,only this time I could actually see and hear myself,but I just couldn’t stop.
Like watching a train wreck-you know you have to stop it, but somehow you just stand there, drawn to the….tragedy of the experience.
All the while, he just stood there and smiled serenely, probably thinking, “Yup, gone round the bend…”
Anyways, I later find out that this guy told a friend, who told me(obviously) that I was “cute”
I take it to mean he thinks I am
a) kooky
b) obviously unhinged in some way
c) all of the above, and mad.
After that, while we were all stuck waiting and I had sobered up a little, I contemplated going over(he was sitting with aforementioned friend) and trying to make amends for my verbal diarrhoea.
But then the voice in my head started screaming….WHAT THE HECK DID YOU JUST DO?
So I thought the better of it and just stayed where I was, doing something I enjoy a lot, poking fun at people.
Anyways( I keep getting sidetracked), this just made me wonder..what if that was the moment- the one they talk about in books and movies….
the moments that make you go weak in the knees…that make you forget who you are..the moments that make you feel you’re floating on clouds..
the moments that take your breath away….
But I attribute it to the fact that it was
a) my birthday
b) I had just eaten a piece of cake
c) and a large piece of chocolate, for no reason
and the most important
d) I don’t believe in all that jazz.
But then I wondered again- what if I’m just too cynical?
And as I have decided;
I’m gonna let bygones be bygones.
Particularly…embarrassing ones.
Hahahaha…
Learning to laugh at yourself takes some growing up and letting go to do.
I’ve found the perfect reason.
Quote of the day:
“Life is not measured by the breaths we take; but by the moments that take our breath away.”
Tabula Rasa
the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
in three days
real life begins.
in three days
a new beginning.
three days to the rest of my life.
the end of an era.
boggle is what my brother used to call me
the other alternated else and piece of shit
mum made him stop
but she calls me lee
to some i go by elle, so chic
but i am not, so to others i am pigs.
some like it haute, i am frenchy-fied.
make just one someone happy,and you will be happy too.
Quote of the day:
“I coulda,woulda,shoulda.”
trading spaces
Ten Things You Didn’t Know (but should)
1. If I were a Desperate Housewive, I’d be Bree van der Kamp, as revealed in one of those nifty online quizzes.
2. If I were on Sex and the City, I’d be Miranda Hobbes.
3. I am neither.
4. My favourite soda is Coke Light
5. Mostly I listen to Bobby Darin,Sinatra, Nat King Cole and Edith Piaf.
6. I love Kleenex.
7. Sometimes the world does better with less talk.
8. I think people deserve a second chance; tabula rasa.
9. I believe people tell you how they really feel all the time, you just have to listen carefully.
10. The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love,and be loved in return.
Quote of the day:
” War doesn’t determine who’s right- only who’s left.”
la bella vita
This is a story about a hat.
Not just any hat.
A special hat.
It isn’t particularly beautiful.
But its a very special hat.
My hat.
When I wear this hat, I am smarter, stronger, tougher.
I say and do things I wouldn’t ordinarily have the courage to.
I make decisions that may or may not alter my life, but wouldn’t have made otherwise.
Although if you were to actually see me wearing this hat, you’d probably laugh-it does add an element of the ridiculous.
But I love it anyway.
When I wear this hat, I can kick your ass.
So know this:
when you put me down;
when you laugh at me;
when you smirk;
when you pity me;
when you take me for granted;
when you think I’m not worth wasting your time on;
when you feel sorry for me;
I am wearing this hat.
And my hat wearing self is kicking your sorry ass.
I like reading.
Weird books, chick lit, man lit, trashy novels, deep thought-provoking tomes, highbrow chichi stuff, nerdy science fiction, fantasy,artsy fartsy things….
(My favourites are chick lit and artsy fartsy things)
And Harry Potter, of course.
(Because who doesn’t?)
Something particularly interesting keeps coming up.
There is a theory, that there are 3 situations you can end up in.
1. You find someone who thinks he or she is really lucky to have landed you
2. You find someone you’re lucky to get.
3. You find someone and you both think you’re lucky to get the other.
I know this is confusing, and I think I may have just confused myself again.
(haha,doesn’t really take a lot to do that…)
I say screw that all, and just be happy.
Live the beautiful life, la bella vita.
fait accompli.
Quote of the day:
“When I don’t get my way……..everyone suffers!”
HAHAHAHAHA….
Nah, I’m not that bad…
if you’re gonna be dumb, you gotta buy a clue…
As I’ve been rudely awakened from a well deserved slumber, I’m in a particularly snarky mood.
Being irritated does that to you.
The time is ripe,then, for a lightning round of celeb-bashing!
Specimen 1: Tom Cruise
Amidst the media circus surrounding Mr Croooz and his new fiancee, it can only be surmised that he has in fact gone off the deep end.
From his sofa abusing turn on Oprah, to his criticism of Brooke Shields for admitting to using Paxil when she was suffering from post-partum depression, followed by an outburst on the Today show, in which he calls Matt Lauer “glib”, and declares “there’s no such thing as a chemical imbalance”.
He would know,of course,himself being a high school dropout, as opposed to the millions of qualified medical practitioners,being the imbeciles that they are,who randomly prescribe antidepressants to people who need them.
Sure, Tom..whatever…
Specimen 2: Brad Pitt
I used to like Brad Pitt, especially so when he was married to Jennifer Aniston. Sadly, his recent romps with Angelina Jolie has pretty much cemented his title as “Jerk of the Year”.
No good can come out of this, Brad- while you’re off playing house with Ms Jolie, the public rallies around Jennifer, and I for one, hope she kicks your ass in court.
Specimen 3: Jude Law
In an inspired move, Jude publicly apologised to Sienna Miller for his affair with the nanny of his kids.
Its interesting to note that what he did to Sienna, he also did to his ex-wife Sadie Frost, with Sienna,to boot..
Specimen 4: Jessica Simpson
Give it up, the dumb blonde act only goes so far. From her claim of abstinence before marriage, to her recent stripper-ish turn in These Boots Are Made For Walking video, one can only wonder who the mastermind is behind her brilliant career moves.
And in case you’re wondering, this means I do not like her.
Specimen 5: Paris and Nicole
Gag, gag, double gag.
Specimen 6: Kelly Clarkson
Oh, this one I actually like, not so much for her talent as her chutzpah; as quoted recently, “Gay men, oh, they love me-it’s like I’m the new Cher”. She doesn’t mince her words, this one…
Specimen 7: Hilary Duff and Lindsay Lohan
Ugh..Acting like a starstruck teenybopper and a media whore, respectively, does not earn you brownie points. In case you’re in any doubt, no one really cares what is it you do in real life, as long as you keep verbally sparring (over a loser nobody cares about either) and stumbling out of clubs looking drunk and stupid.
Oh wait, you can’t help the stupid bit-never mind.
I honestly don’t know how I’ve amassed all this info on celebs, although I suspect a subscription to People magazine doesn’t help.
Going shopping now, tOodles!
Quote of the day:
“Secretly, boys eat boogers when nobody’s watching.”
Do you?
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